I Like My Life

This afternoon, I have been thinking about how I am so thankful for the life the Lord has given me. It really comes as a surprise to me that I could feel this way at this point.

When I was pregnant with Abbey and Caroline, everyone told me how it was going to be soooo hard the first year. I can remember one mom of twins--one--that told me that it would be good and fun. I was really terrified and almost dreading it, because of the reactions I got from both moms-of-multiples and other folks. And, that was before I told them that I was homeschooling Jack. When I told them that, if I had the courage to do so, then they looked at me like I was truly crazy.

But, here we are four months in. Last night I was up with Caroline watching Letterman. It dawned on me that it had been a while since I'd seen Letterman, much less Craig Ferguson, who comes on later. In the early months, these guys were nightly companions. Those were sweet times. They were sleepy times, but sweet, too. Now they are past me as a regular feature.

Abbey and Caroline are "coming alive." They are looking around, smiling, figuring out how to use their hands and voices. It is a fun time. I get a bit nervous thinking about when they become mobile, but I also get excited thinking about when they start talking. I remember how scared I was before they were born. I see how God has helped me through. I remember to take one day at a time. I relax a little.

Jack is learning. He is reading well. He knows about bugs, jungles, times long ago. He can add and subtract some. He is making friends at our co-op and hoping to make friends on his coach pitch softball team when that starts. I love teaching him. I get frustrated. I yell. I ask for forgiveness. I love watching him learn. He likes it, too.

Molly is not lost in the shuffle. She is learning to play alone. She is learning alongside Jack. She is growing and maturing. She is loving her twins.

Is my life full? Yes! Is it sometimes crazy full? Often! Do I get tired of the crying and the bottles? Yes! Do I lose it sometimes? More than I'd like! Is it worth it? Totally!