Once Again

Yep, Abbey's surgery has been cancelled again. She got a cold a week ago Sunday. She really only has a bit of a runny nose right now. But, even a bit is enough to cancel. They don't want any swollen nasal passages when they are working to create the floor of her nasal cavity. They don't want any chance of infection around the surgery site. They want 100% health when she goes under anesthesia. They reminded me that while this is important surgery, it is "elective". So we need to wait for it to be as risk free as possible.

So, I am frustrated once again. There is so much coordination that has to happen. Ed has to get someone to preach two Sundays for him. Mom and MaryAnn have to clear their schedules and travel. The church folks make themselves available to help. Jack's teacher and carpool folks have to be informed. The several weeks beforehand we have to be careful about who we have over to the house. Jack couldn't have any play dates during his fall break or during Christmas break. Now, her new surgery date is right after his spring break. So, he won't be able to have play dates then. Plus, we have to miss church at least one Sunday. We have tried a 3 week quarantine and just living normal life but being careful. She has gotten sick both times. There is all of this, not to mention the emotional build up of thinking about giving my daughter to strangers who are going to hurt her, even if it is for her own good.

I trust that she is in the Lord's hands, and that we all are, but I don't want to have to do this again. Yet, even as I type this, I am reminded that this is so small in the scheme of things. It is so fixable and such a blessing to have the Shriner's help. There are so many worse things we could be dealing with right now. So, I guess I'll snuggle with Molly and not worry about all the things that were still on my to do list today.

Thanks for caring about our journey.